How people stand and watch someone struggling when they know that person needs help?
Like where is your compassion?
5 mile run and my day was turned around. I feel so much better. Now to pop open this bottle of wine and catch up on House of Cards.
or not to go?
I have serious issues with trying to control things that occur in my life. Right now I’m in a situation similar to Oedipus minus the killing my father and marrying/sleeping with my mother part.
I know about something that is going to happen but I’m trying so hard to prevent it from happening that I could end up making it happen anyway. Today it almost happened but I went to seek answers out on my own directly…possibly torturing me even more.
Its just a conflicting situation to be in and I keep wondering why did I find out. Its really bothering me that I know and whats bothering me even more is that all of this is so messed up. I’m trying to protect myself but I feel like somehow it could backfire.
The biggest lesson learned though is to allow God to do things his way. I’m trying to control something I really don’t have control over…I mean I do but still either way I’m going to lose.
But Im not losing because its in God’s hands and whatever he decides is what is best for me so essentially I’m winning with him. I just have to humble myself and keep that in mind.
from 2010 on this date til 2013 on this date and its so funny to see what my concern or stress was.
College was my life and so was being an exemplary student. My my how things have changed
Young and healthy and alive! Enjoy it and indulge in it.
Have fun! Buy things you desire but also don’t forget about your responsibilities. Travel. Eat what you want but also take care of your temple. Fall in love and when you do it should be with someone who is wholely invested in you, invested in your growth, invested in experiencing and indulging in love, and inspires you to be better. Take chances. Take risks even if it means you’ll get hurt or disappointed.
The worst thing to do is to exist but not live. Live. So many people have a deep desire to live or didn’t make it but you’re here. Embrace life. Love life. Live life.
Are a lot of things that make me uncomfortable and fearful but I’m trying to push myself into doing those things more.
If I continue to be fearful and not take it on then I’m only stunting my growth.
Relaxing this whole Sunday I’m going to have to reconsider a few things.
So much to update on right now.
Life is sort of interesting at the moment. Sort of.